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  • Listening to: Enslaved
  • Playing: Battlestar Galactica Online
  • Drinking: tea... as always
Hi guys!

It's been a long time since I've visited DA.

I've mooved from my family home, graduated from Academy of Fine Arts and now I think it's time to get back to photography as it was before.

Hopefully I'll upload some new pics soon.

For now you can follow me on
facebook : www.facebook.com/pages/Fantasm…
or find me in some other places like:
maxmodels.pl  :  www.maxmodels.pl/fantasmica
photoblogia.pl  :  www.photoblog.pl/fantasmica


Wish you all a great year and loads of inspirations!
  • Listening to: Ram-Zet
  • Reading: please do I really have to?!?!
  • Drinking: tea...
Exams are killing me..
sloth sloth sloth

Here are some links to galleries of my friends and family.

:iconhvithaaret: Fiance
:iconqbalewandowski: Dad
:iconbeyondtheeyelids: Slave - a good friend
:iconmyszolinda: great artist from Toruń

friends from Academy of Fine Arts:
:iconlp-dream: :iconanoiaahna:
  • Listening to: The Black Dahlia Murder :: Nocturnal ::
  • Reading: Sven Hassel - O.G.P.U. Prison
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: tea...
It;s been a while since I've updated my jurnal on DA.
This entry is all about Enslaved.
I have to say that I love this band more and more...
Thanks to my future husband I've seen them playing live in Warsaw - it was ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL experience so..
I want to share with you my beloved song from Enslaved newest album - "Vertebrae" - The Watcher.
Here is the link to the music video pl.youtube.com/watch?v=CGOHk2J…
Hope you'll enjoy :)


:: ENSLAVED - The Watcher ::

Darkness...
Fear...
Life...
Cold...

Left alone with no will
Walking in footsteps of the fallen
Blinded by lack of reason
Indulging the tales of doom

...Farewell,
May the darkness bind them
No one will
Remember the pain when we are...

Desolate...
Unconscious...
Lost...

Where lays the ones I've slain?
Did I become any wiser?
Will their anger hunt me down?
Did I sacrifice in vain?

...Farewell,
Hear the sound of solitude
No one will
Walk the bridge, to darkness overcome

Settlement...
Trust...
Relief...
Dawn...

Guide me, watcher in the skies
Transform the forces of the dead
In my dreams I'll hunt them down
I now know the truth






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check his works out :iconhvithaaret: : my fiance :*
visit his gallery :iconqbalewandowski: : my father :)
check her out : :iconlp-dream: : my schoolmate :)
my best friend : :iconbeyondtheeyelids:
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check out those bands:: ULVHEDINN [link]
CLOCKWISE [link]
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Kochani kolejna wystawa tym razem wspolna.
Wszystkie info na jej temat w jurnalu panny Agnieszki :)

lp-dream.deviantart.com/journa…
  • Listening to: Sweeney Todd Soundtrack
  • Drinking: tea...
  :star::bulletred: :bulletred:ARTeNATIVE#2, 10.05.08 (sobota) klub Patio, Gdańsk :bulletred: :bulletred: :star:

:bulletgreen:Wystawa bedzie... Taka troche moja w zasadzie wiec... zapraszam.:bulletgreen:

:pointr:zoharum.com/index.php?MENU=new…:

:bulletpurple: :bulletpurple:Bedzie mozna zobaczyc twarzyczki :iconlp-dream::iconbeyondtheeyelids::iconhenryk1984: i paru innych osob;P :bulletpurple: :bulletpurple:



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:star:Many thanks to :iconlonelywolf2: for sharing his experience in photoshop with me. I really appreciate it!!!! :star:

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Visit their galleries (friends and family) : :iconqbalewandowski: :iconlp-dream: :iconliquidcream: :iconbeyondtheeyelids:

:star:Chceck this band out : ULVHEDINN [link] (my fiance) :star:

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  • Listening to: RUMOURS ABOUT ANGELS II- birth proces
  • Reading: work advertisements
  • Playing: FreeCell
  • Eating: chocolate
  • Drinking: tea...
Hi there!

I've finally replaced my good old friend CRT with new, lovely LCD monitor and... I'm kinda confused now;P Suddenly I can see all the details in the shadows and highlights. I never even imagine that in some parts of my photos those details exists!! Now I can see all the imperfections and errors. It's kinda depressing you know? ;P The worst part is that I'll have to correct almost all of my works... I think that I really liked living in unawareness 'cause now I know that majority of my works really sucks!!
Oh well...



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Many thanks to :iconlonelywolf2: for sharing his experience in photoshop with me. I really appreciate it!!!!

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Visit their galleries : :iconqbalewandowski: :iconlp-dream: :iconliquidcream: :iconbeyondtheeyelids:

Chceck this band out : ULVHEDINN www.myspace.com/ulvhedinn (my fiance)

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  • Listening to: rock.megastacja.net
  • Reading: :: Terry Pratchett :: THE TRUTH ::
  • Drinking: tea...and coffee
Hi there :)

I'm kinda busy with my fantastic "linoryt project"right now ... But (as always) I have some lyrics to share with you all. This time it will be lyrics from Riverside's newest album (which I absolutely adore !!) - 'Rapid Eye Movement'. Song is entitled 'Schizophrenic Prayer' and it's really outstanding and magical. Hope you'll like this track and it's lyrics.


                   :: RIVERSIDE :: Schizophrenic Prayer ::

So afraid of rejection
Hide inside ourselves
Acting like strangers to avoid the pain

We collect our phobias
Our sicknesses
Feel so good only when we can complain

In your arms
Feels like a better us
In your arms

Dancing around the fire
Getting drunk with the night
Nobody is ever who they seem to be

Hypnos give us your hand
We so tire of this life
Need to rest and finally disappear

In your arms
Feels like a better us
In your arms

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visit his gallery :iconqbalewandowski: : my father :)
check her out : :iconlp-dream: : my schoolmate :)
my friend : :iconbeyondtheeyelids: he is new here :)

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special thanks to :iconczornyy: for drawing such an amazing versions of my photos : czornyy.deviantart.com/art/Emp… and czornyy.deviantart.com/art/Emp…

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check out those bands:: ULVHEDINN www.myspace.com/ulvhedinn
                                   CLOCKWISE www.myspace.com/clockwiseband

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  • Listening to: ::THE GATHERING::These Good People::
  • Reading: Ryszard Kapuscinski : Podroze z Herodotem
  • Watching: Changing of the guard in Greece
  • Eating: sandwich with excellent Polish bread
  • Drinking: tea...as always
So... Yesterday morning I've came back from 17 day trip to UK. First I've been in Cambridge for 2 two weeks - I really like that place. Nice architecture and friendly atmosphere. I've made some photos but I really can't take a good picture of a building- I prefer human than stones and bricks.
Despite the crowd in the streets I think that Cambridge is a place to live.

Unfortunately because of the lack of time we couldn't go to Sutton Hoo but I'm pretty sure that we've seen the most interesting things in  British Museum.

4 days before going back to Poland we went (me + my future husband) to London.I LOVE British Museum!! I've seen there the monuments of Mesopotamia and Assyria which I simply adore (my favorite ones form the history of ancient art). I thought that they have a larger Egypt exhibition. We were looking for some Akhenaten sculptures but we've found nothing :(
I've enjoyed the Science Museum- I didn't know that V2 rocket was SO big and  that Sputnik was so small.

Unfortunately we had no time for National Gallery, Tower and London Eye. Well -in the future I'll have to go there one more time and see the rest of Museums.



OH! One more thing! ;>
Today I'll serve you lyrics from my favorite song from the latest Behemoth's album "The Apostasy".



:: BEHEMOTH :: INNER SANCTUM ::

Split my skin, fuck my wounds
Desecrate the Inner Sanctum in which I hide
Drag me through the mud, blind my whitening eyes
That I may see darkness in the tunnels ov light

Pain I cannot deny
As I rot in this empty shell
Swamped in disaffection
Introducing to my newborn hell

Be it not so!
Thou shall see me not in agony
Failure was and is no option
'Tis my undying self
The ever wandering son ov the morn
Abandoned, yet never to be conquered

I never mourn, I never look back as long as Thy phosphoric rays
Grant me more pleasure than pain
I, who is evil can receive no good
Though I still crave, I'm yearning for
Thy healing touch ov grace...

Pain is timeless
When I question the laws ov god
Drowned in everlasting confusion
Caress my hate against the mob

Be it not so!
Thou shall see me not in agony
Failure was and is no option
'Tis my undying self
The ever wandering son ov the morn
Abandoned, yet never to be conquered
The opponent!
My life's work is complete...
  • Listening to: ::ULVER::Hallways Of Always::
  • Reading: Jacek Komuda - "IMIE BESTII"
  • Playing: with my lips
  • Drinking: tea...as always
No need to comment those lyrics... Just listen to the music, feel it, touch the sound, smell it's meaning...

:: ULVER :: Nowhere/Catastrophe ::

You fly, or rather float, drift
Through an enormous dark room
A room of noises

Endless shimmering glissandi
Crackling pizzicato
Coal black, turbulence holes of bass drones
But otherwise empty
No planets, no meteorites
If anything, perhaps fine dust clouds of exploded music

You float there, somewhere between pleasure and fear

In a piece of time you can't determine
You're everywhere but in the present
Hey you disappear further and further
Into these incalculable rooms
And your personality fades away

Your features evaporate, your body decomposes

And your last thought is that you have become a noise
A thin, nameless noise among all the others
Howling in the empty dark room
  • Listening to: ::ENSLAVED::Return To Yggdrasil::
  • Drinking: tea...
I've been "tagged" by my dearest :iconnosredna1313: ... First of all - Jesse I will kill you and that's not a joke ;P Because my English is too poor I will write in Polish :> to understand my disquisition about all the creepy stuff about me you will have to learn my first language- Polish :D

>>"The 1st player of this starts with the topic weird habits/facts/dislikes about yourself and people who get tagged must write in their journals about their 6 weird habits/facts/dislikes as well as state this rule clearly.

>>In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list to their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says you're tagged.

Ok so now a time for a translation- free translation.

1. Mam obrzydliwie ochydny nałóg- papieroski - pale zawsze, wszedzie i baaaardzo duzo- nawet w tej chwili.

1.My most disgusting habit - cigarettes. I smoke always, everywhere and really a lot - even now.

2.Moi najlepsi przyjaciele sa chyba najgorszym z najgorszych obrzydliwych obrzydliwosci. Sa upierdliwi, uparci, inteligentni, zabawni, nigdy nie na nich nie zawiodlam, no tragedia po prostu- wszystko takie slodkie i fuuuj wogole ;P

2.My best friends are just ... yuck! They are intelligent, wise, funny,  they never disappointed me... they are a sweetest pain in the ars..

3.Niestety jeden nawyk mam naprawde nie fajny... Nawet jak moj ukochany piesek zmarl i patrzylam na jego malutkie, zimne cialko lezace na moim lozku to... chcialam mu zrobic zdjecie :/

3.Unfortunately one of my habits is really not a cool one.. Even when my beloved dog died and I was looking at his little, cold body lying on my bed... I wanted to take a photo of him :/

4.Tak w klimacie umarlych.. nosilam na szyli, w fiolce krew mojego ex.. jak ja (ta fiolke rzecz jasna) otworzylam to ... jesu gorszego smrodu nigdy nie czulam!

4. I was wearing round my neck my ex-boyfriend's blood in a vial. When I've opened it ... GOD it was the worst stink I've ever smell!

5. Nie sprzatam po sobie skarpetek... czasami dwa dni leza sobie gdzies w pokoju... wtedy lepiej mi sie spi ;P

5. My dirty socks can lie in my room for 2, 3 days before I throw them out  - my friend says that I  sleep better because of it ;P

6. Szósty i ostatni. Jak bylam mala to uwielbialam wgniatac muchy w firanki.

6.Six and the last one. When I was a child I loved to press flies into  the curtains.

and now... i have to choose 6 people... well... ok

:iconigrocki:
:iconboarface:
:iconwodanislav:
:iconlp-dream:
:iconqbalewandowski:
:iconsinikristalli:
  • Listening to: ::PECCATUM::Stillness::
  • Reading: Pilipiuk
  • Drinking: tea...
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Some good lyrics for lonely nights. Music is kinda depressing but in some strange erotic way...
Peccatum is a weird project of Ihsahn (Emperror) and his wife Ihriel-so I strongly recommend whole album - "Lost In Reverie" to you all.
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:: PECCATUM :: Black Star ::

I am the black star
hostess of your dead hearts hymn
my heart explodes in your ecstasy

you drink me like poison
I am the water wherein you drown
your love is reflections of death

beyond night
you are no longer excess of light
beyond the hours of darkness you are mine.

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  • Listening to: ::EMPEROR::With Strength I Burn::
  • Watching: minute hand
  • Drinking: tea
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My favorite track from "Ruun"- last full-length album of amazing Norwegian band - Enslaved

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::ENSLAVED:: RUUN ::

Have you ever seen beyond the reach?
Have you ever felt the change?
Visions from an altered state
They conceal and relevate

Communing once again with Gods
Thread unto the impossible path
Talking with a different tongue
Heralding the unsung

Reach for them, see them turn away

Have you ever seen beyond the reach?
Have you ever felt the change?
Visions from an altered state
They conceal and relevate
Fly away, chains undone

Reach for them, see them turn away

Doors open wide
Step into the light
No turning back
Embrace the night
Breathe eternities
We are not alone
Never to return
Merge with the unknown

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  • Listening to: :: LA NEGRA :: El Mago Pitico
Let those lyrics say what I can't...


:: ARCTURUS :: Evacuation Code Deciphered ::


change channel i am bored again
take five and restart the game
i suggest a different approach
remake the world with a devilish touch
evolution is too slow ghost
relax and sit back i am your new host

fantastic elastic all things can be spastic
no room for bore press enter and store
we live in small shells put that on a shelf
e.s.p. for all big and small
saga-lore mature splendor
ragamuffin saga-puffin all you can snort

electric eyes for sparkling flies
will be much more fun for the rejects and dumb
so what do you change
in your realm of decadence
king or queen or something snotty between

worlds shatter to darkness without matter
no matter no matter we stole

too far from home
rid your shoulders of this stone
which direction is up
what way to the top
it seems we are lost
this is no place to linger
let your throat embrace your finger
evacuate this tomb
there is always an exit
for aliens infected
our race
seems we crashed on the way

two dried up bugs trapped in the same web
slimy slugs on a busy rainy highway
you and i are not lost without words
we can live again without rebirth

two old drunks sharing the same cup
a pair of fools sailing where no wind blows
a band of burglars stealing traces from their lost shoes
  • Listening to: ENSLAVED : Ruun
  • Reading: Enslaved lyrics
  • Watching: him
  • Eating: flesh
  • Drinking: tea
In a first place I would like to thank you all for visiting my gallery. You have no idea haw happy I am!

Lately I have a strange feeling that something surrounds me - some strange kind of love atmosphere ... so here comes lyrics for today.
Track from "From dusk till down" - "After Dark" performed by Tino & Tarantula.


"Watching her
Strolling in the night
So white
Wondering why
It's only After Dark

In her eyes
A distant fire light
burns bright
Wondering why
It's only After Dark

I find myself in her room
Feel the fever of my doom
Falling falling
Through the floor
I'm knocking on the Devil's door

In the Dawn
I wake up to find
her gone
And a note says
Only After Dark

Burning burning
in the flame
Now I know her
secret name
You can tear her temple down
But she'll be back
and rule again

In my heart
A deep and dark
and lonely part
Wants her and
waits for After Dark"
  • Listening to: VITAL REMAINS :: Dechristianize
  • Reading: nothin
  • Watching: last cigarette
  • Playing: with my psyche
  • Eating: my brain
  • Drinking: tee
I'm just sick of it... sick of being judged by my interests, style, appearance - whatever. I never thought that there will come a day when someone so close for me like a member of my family, will tell me that I'm a bad person just because I like dark photos! GOD (whichever of course)! SICK... simply sick.
There are so many annoying topics....
Not only in my f**** country people just can't look like they want, believe in what they want, but they are afraid to do so!
On top of all evil are our Polish, fantastic "upper classes" with their clean hands, impeccable manners and stupid "superiority" over any other human being. Kill'em all I say! They look at me like I was some sort of disgusting bug - sometimes -alternatively- they're just trying not to look...
Don't forget about Polish pride - the best of the bests - "dresiarze"- "subculture" with no sens of style or wisdom (without any trace of brain - ECHO!!) but with an excess of stupidity,aggression (physical and verbal) and intolerance.
There is one more group but this time much more national - "mohair berets" - yeah... they are irritating.. A crowd of older,unpunished, pseudo-catholics which believe that they are saints and that (what a beautiful similarity to "upper classes") any other human is a bad, bad person send from Hell to destroy their beloved "Radio Maria" or even worst - that he is a Jew (horror isn't it??)...Of course in their opinion I'm a member of some sort Satan-worshipping cult.
Just great. Poland-democratic, old, civilized, European country. Old- I agree...

Forgive me this monologue on this very disagreeable topic, but I'm so angry and helpless that any form of fulfillment is helping me to calm down.



And now time for some Anti-Christian lyrics...( yes- today everyone will be insulted- even poor Christians - forgive me guys- no offense - I'm a huge fan of original Christianity )

First I was thinkin' about Behemoth's "Christians To The Lions" but today simply-  I don't wanna stir up any patriotic feelings.

Have a good reading

:: VITAL REMAINS :: Dechristianize ::

'Trembling to its fall
Putting an end to it all
By storm, by force
With might…without remorse
We are here to conquer this world
Like cancer…our hate consumes the light of elysium
Unstoppable force of demonic supremacy
All destroying…all devouring
Heaven now ravaged…scarred and empty
Strike the death knell of the pandemonium
Imbrue one's hands in the blood of christ
Washing away all filth of righteousness
The dimming of the light
Engulfing the trinity
He raped…the culture of mankind
He raped…the pride of the ancient ways
He raped…all thought of freewill
I who will watch you fall into obscurity
Washing away all filth of righteousness
The dimming of the light
Engulfing the fucking trinity
I spit upon your deity
Supposed creator of all things
Idol of irreverence you worship above
Show your true face…the image of prevarication
Unhallowed be our twilight
Thy grace untriumphant
Mourn the crowning of unconquerable profanation
Hell's grim tyrant…the eldest of night and chaos
Breathe once again…far from the shadow of god
This day of reckoning will be unavenged
Glory of wrathful indignation
I deny god and all religion
Turn up the whites of their eyes…Dechristianize
Our poisonous truths
Divinity…drowning in impurity
Unconquerable…unstoppable
Sanguilent in your agony
Like cancer…our hate consumes the light Elysium
Unstoppable force of demonic supremacy
All destroying…all devouring
Heaven now ravaged…scarred and empty
Strike the death knell of the pandemonium
Imbrue one's hands in the blood of christ
Washing away all filth of righteousness
The dimming of the light
Engulfing the trinity
He raped…the culture of mankind
He raped…the pride of the ancient ways
He raped…all thought of freewill
I who will watch you fall into obscurity
Washing away all filth of righteousness
The dimming of the light
Engulfing the fucking trinity
Dechristianize…Dechristianize…Dechristianize…Dechristianize…
Hell's grim tyrant…the eldest of night and chaos
Breathe once again…far from the shadow of god
This day of reckoning will be unavenged
Glory of wrathful indignation
I deny god and all religion
Turn up the whites of their eyes…Dechristianize
Dechristianize"


Jak to sie u nas mawia : tru grim and metro ;)
  • Listening to: Vintersorg - Döpt I En Jökelsjö
  • Reading: in thoughts
  • Watching: running cursor
  • Eating: cookies
  • Drinking: coffee
Well- I have no bloody idea what this track is about but it's BEAUTIFUL - especially percussion and it's crazy, jazzy rhythm. I really recommend this one and the whole album (Solens Rötter) to you all !


VINTERSORG - Spirar Och Gror

Ett varregn seglar fram och sprider sin väta
Över marken, som tänd av tidens laga
I denna längtans trakt har ljusdroppar börjat fläta
Sommarväven som ivrigt vill atertaga

Livskraftens gatfullhet
Spirar I växandets vard
Tämjd av jordens fruktbarhet,
Ett myller förenas I ett ackord
Livskraftens gatfullhet
Andas i stillhet och storm
I ett kretslopp byggt mot evighet
Likt spruckna droppars aterskapade form

I en tid när varje frö väcks för sin resa
Ur sin kapslar, förhemligade men fria
Spridda av vinden för att beträda glesa
Vidder, som de har kommit för att befria

Ur vintrig skepnad höjs världen nyansrikt
Och varens skira grönska först
Där, smältfloder ljuder orkesterlikt
Och mildrar jordskorpans oändliga törst
  • Listening to: nothing special
  • Drinking: coffee
loneliness
sorrow
panic
agony...

I'm filled with grief and sadness...
Nothing can take the pain away...
the inevitability of death reached my beloved creature...
I've lost piece of myself, piece of my heart...
Boredom transformed into break down...

I miss Him so much!!!!
  • Listening to: MAlice Mizer "Gensou Rakuen"
  • Reading: friend's messages
  • Drinking: tea
I'm so bored... I don't wanna eat, can't sleep... I wish i could go somewhere, to some nice, quiet place.
I'm  hungry but food makes me sick...
Maybe I should go to work... yeah.. I should... but I can't! I don't want to...
Even writing makes me sick..

I'm searching for inspiration.. Where is it?? I will check in the closet.. maybe it's hiding there.. or maybe it's under the table in the next room, or maybe between the strings in piano... maybe in soundbox, maybe somewhere deep in my head.
I'm so bored....